Who Am I?

My main mission for this year is to get to serious about writing the family stories that I have been intending to document for many, many years. It totally overwhelms me, so I never get anywhere with the project.


Tonight I started a four week course with Melanie Kindrachuk from Four Rooms, designed to get us motivated to write our life story.  Our first exercise was to tackle 'Who Am I?' in five minutes. This is what I wrote:

I am.

Very much.

I am filled

with a lifetime

of memories, of thoughts, of visions;

past, present, future.

They fill me up

and swirl

and swirl

inside my head.

'Round and 'round

and 'round.

They want out.

so there is space for more.

I am big.

Big in my head.

In my heart.

In my dreams.

I'm okay with that.

I have no issues with Big.

I like living Big.

What I want and need to do

with all that bigness

is to sort it out a bit.

I need to leave it

in better shape

than it is in my head.

I want the swirling

to settle

gently,

so I can leave it all

in a neat little package,

tied with a red ribbon.